Our Fretting + the Fabric of Space-Time

I don't like learning things just to learn them. With my BodyGraph in Human Design, things need to have personal value for me before I even care. So when I very superficially peruse concepts in the world of physics, I'm looking for things that might change the way I live life. It's all theory, it's all play in a sense, but some of these scientists propose "what-ifs" that simultaneously make me uncomfortable and enlivened.

I'll keep this short because this isn't meant to be a lesson. God knows I am in no position to teach such things. I'm just sharing two nuggets I found interesting and thought-provoking.

1 ⟢ The Block Universe

The Block Universe is a concept that grew out of Einstein's theory of relativity. The idea: all of spacetime, every moment that has ever occurred or will ever occur, exists simultaneously as a single, static, four-dimensional structure. Past, present, and future are equally real. You at age seven, learning to ride a bike, that moment still exists somewhere, fixed in the fabric of spacetime. The you of twenty years from now already occupies a coordinate in that same block.

There are variations of this model that have been developed since Einstein, but I think even the basic concept allows us to sit with the idea of eternity in a comprehensive way. It does ruffle the feathers of people invested in free will versus determinism, but I've found it more interesting to just sit with it as it is.

Because it could be that:

• The story is already written into the fabric of spacetime.
• Whatever I do or don't do, wrapped in the illusion of free will or not, occurs according to the plot of the story.
• God really does have the whole world, our universe, in His hands.
• Passenger consciousness, as Ra was taught, really might be the point of all this. To witness a story of Love being conceived, then evolved and matured over billions of years by the force that made it, sustains it, and is devoted to its completion.

I don't really care about the discussion of free will versus determinism because it will always be from my subjective point of view inside the block. I have no way of fully grasping time and space outside of the linear experience I have now. Plus, I feel rather silly rushing to argue for my agency in all this when I'm still a fleshy meat suit radically dependent on and vulnerable to the cycles of sleeping, eating, and shitting. How god-like I feel. I must have free will. (Just kidding.)

Honestly, I have observed myself doing acts of kindness and I have observed myself being selfish. I watch myself being diligent with my dental hygiene, yet negligent about putting books back on the shelf after I've read them. It's all very weird when you decondition and start experiencing what "passenger consciousness" means, according to Ra.

Anyways, the point is, maybe we don't need to ascertain whether there is free will or not. Just enjoy the story. It's already penned.

2 ⟢ Space + Time Emerging OUT OF SOMETHING

I found this mind-boggling. To think of space and time not as fundamental laws or qualities that exist on their own, but as ingredients of something, malleable, shaped by some force we haven't named yet.

What are they emerging out of?

Because Ra's statement that neutrinos have mass was later confirmed by conventional science in 1998, over a decade after he said it, I've been paying closer attention to other scientific suggestions he dropped throughout his lectures. One was a reference to Steady State Theory. Another was his hope that scientists would eventually discover that the source of gravity is actually located in the G Center, that it is the G Center holding this entire Illusion together.

So what if space and time are emerging out of something in the G Center itself?

I don't know, I'm just postulating. But it's the kind of question that makes me want to keep looking.

Personal takeaways:

⋄ The panic is optional. If the story is already written, the low hum of dread that you're behind, broken, or running out of time has no foundation.

⋄ Watch, don't judge. You're a passenger witnessing a character do kind things, selfish things, remembered things, forgotten things. It's all a part of the story.

⋄ Awe is an underrated life strategy. You don't need to resolve the big questions. Sitting inside a mystery this vast, without needing to win the argument or fix the theology, is its own kind of freedom.